NaBloPoMo: Thirteen

Prompt thirteen: Do you think you handle pressure well, or do you usually fall apart?

I mentioned this earlier in the week that I handle pressure well when I'm around others. I try my best to keep a cool head because it doesn't help anyone to freak out. However, behind closed doors, if I'm feeling pressure and I'm by myself or with my husband, I have no trouble crumbling.

When I'm stressed or angry, I cry. It's the only way I know how to release the emotion without actually punching something (I'm not violent though, I promise). I try my hardest not to cry in front of others if I'm experiencing stress or anger, too. Again, it doesn't help anything. A good cry when no one's around always feels good though, am I right?

I cry at least twice a semester - I get in a really good cry about three weeks before the end. I cry when someone has really pushed my buttons (or one of my pressure points). I cry every now and then when I look at our debt balance and it's not going away faster than we can manage. But then I feel better after I cry because it gives me a release, and then I know that everything will be OK.

All of these prompts feel like I'm letting you in on my little secrets, but it's been fun to think about these traits in myself. If anything else, it is helping me to evaluate my reactions to situations in my past and to hopefully have better reactions to some things in the future.